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Cold Water

by River Irene

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Jonas Song 03:16
i want you to call me and I want you to say " hey I'm coming to your town, can i visit you house and give you the present that i made? cuz i miss you and i love you and I've been thinking of you" but that's not what you'd say and you don't call me, anyway I wanna love somebody who would call me to say " hey i met this tree and it reminds me of you cuz it smells so good and it's covered in moss so it's soft and it's living next to the river cuz it loves the river like you do, and i love you." now when i call you i don't tell you about the trees i don't think you quite understand what beauty means to me do you think I'm silly? at night when i do my magic in my room you appear you hold me and love me like you used to i don't want you if we were just souls, i mean our souls they were so close but you've got a body that moves, you do the things you do i don't want you in my room I'm glad it's finally raining I'm glad that I'm alone i like my knew roommate i like my new home
wrap you up in my time, and I'll tuck you into a corner of my mind I want to float til I'm glowing blue, and this ocean might swallow you you wanted to rot to your bones root in the dirt, yeah she's calling you home I scooped you out in time, but your mind's still floating in the brine why can't I just let you die? I can't trust you, you stab branches through my chest I can't trust you, you tore me through my favorite dress why can't i just pass you by? I used to write you like you were glowing gold but i would dream that you were leaving me feels like my love for you's a feeling growing old, it's a love for someone that I'll never be wrap you up in my time, and I'll tuck you into a corner of my mind why can't I just let you die? why can't I just let you die?
I wanna want go back to the park when the leaves are falling, the day getting dark then we could eat ourselves back to the autumn time I wanna feel those spores flooding my mind again eating your words like I don't remember what you said, but if i keep trying to repeat it then maybe I'll find the words to say why I'm so afraid that I'll die before my baby's born and I'll plant a nice garden, and play lots of music, and help my children not to forget their magic so hopefully when i die i won't be too lonely and i'll be happy to go where I'm going or where I've been all along maybe I'm just floating too I want to grow older and younger with you are not the reason that I'm getting stronger reason, what reason? It's taking me longer to digest the nouns that I tried to use to describe something beautiful i must have lost my mind I keep seeing these tiny specs floating all over my eyes and I feel like I'm dreaming and yeah I'm "empowered" but I'm still and object for people to touch and to buy and to look at and i love my body and i love this lipstick and you can look at me for free as long as you don't touch my ass on the bus and please don't talk to me i don't want to be a symbol for femininity that these men keep selling to me and they're making a lot of money but I'm only seventeen
Cold Water 01:15
i wish you could understand why I gotta swim in the cold water i wish you could understand how I'm excited to grow old in a garden with the seeds that I'm growing grow up never grow up i wish you could love the things about me that i love but you don't i wish you would want me glow floating in this ocean, but you won't i guess you're not the one for me cuz you don't wanna learn how to love me i guess you're not the one for me cuz you dumped me
Messy 03:48
There's moss on the roof i don't look at you it feels likes i'm dreaming there's moss on the roof, i don't look at you yet the stars they are talking to me the trees showed me their faces before, now it's too dark to see hide me escape from my time, fold into your mind find me too young, too much for you to touch too too too much 1234 you to touch too too too much 1234 you to touch 666 on your wrist 666 on your wrist devils talking sleeping walking drunk and alone i don't want to call you and I could drown now but i won't i went to the woods where i used to be magic and walked on the path that i dreamed and it wasn't as big as it's meant to be it wasn't sunny i think I'm growing out of my memory escape from my head, fall into your bed bad timing too young too much for you to touch too too too much 1234 you to touch too too too much 1234 you to touch 666 on your wrist 666 on your wrist devils talking dreaming walking
got myself crazy for you got myself high i won't be your baby, for you I'm not gonna try I'm a girl I'm not a child i wanna feel lucid and lonely i wanna come down i wanna feel whole, not holy sitting on this ground I've got this power moving through me you love me and my power but now you suck the light out of me I don't like your magic, it's careless and dark but i long for your magic can't be part of your art i get so far from my body but not yet letting it die i get so far from my body i forgot how to cry you said you wouldn't touch me, but that's all you fucking do when i really don't, don't want you too I'm sorry please leave me alone, you're too old for me I'm sorry just leave me alone, I don't wanna see don't wanna see don't wanna see don't wanna see you anymore


released March 4, 2017

All songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by Sean Sebastian at Bard Rock Studios

<3 Special thanks to Kelli for her supportive, passionate, and inspirational teaching and to Sean and Juliette for their kindness, love, and magic <3

album art by Frankie and Irene

all songs written and performed by Irene Bowen

*this version is without two songs that were released when the album first came out, if you would like those songs- they are still available on the cd, or email me and I can send them to you for free*


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